If I really had faith, I wouldn't be worried. If I really had faith, I wouldn't have anxiety attacks. If I really had faith, I wouldn't be depressed. I would just be HAPPY. "Too blessed to be stressed." And for years, I believed that...
Tag: joy
Dear son…
Sometimes, I look at you and can’t make sense of how much time has already passed… even though nothing seemed to really change day by day. I see you now while I still see you then, and I’m starting to see who you are becoming. The bigger you get, the more you start to pull… Continue reading Dear son…
Just take the step.
When is the last time you really stepped out of your comfort zone? Have you felt prompted to do something but you talked yourself out of it? What’s holding you back? I believe more than anything else, fear holds us back. Fear of rejection. Fear of judgment. Fear of failure. Fear of embarrassment. Fear of… Continue reading Just take the step.
When things go back to normal.
I keep hearing it - “I can’t wait for things to go back to normal.” “When things are normal again...” What “normal” is everyone is longing for? Seeing family and celebrating holidays together. Having birthday parties and baby showers and weddings. Worshipping in packed sanctuaries together. Having the freedom to take the kids to the… Continue reading When things go back to normal.
Choose hope.
On this day last year, I got a phone call at work. It was a nurse from my doctor’s office, telling me that my baby girl’s genetic screening came back with a positive marker for Down syndrome. She wanted me to come in for more tests and follow up with the “high risk” doctor. I… Continue reading Choose hope.
They won’t remember, but I will.
It’s amazing how such a short phase of life can feel like your whole life. I’ve been alive for 34 years now. That sounds like a long time (to me). I’ve only been a mom for 4 of those years (a short time, relatively speaking). Yet those 4 years define who I am more than… Continue reading They won’t remember, but I will.
2019 in review.
January & February: First trimester. Nausea all the time, sleeping all the time. Baby Bottle Campaign & Gala preparations keeping me super busy at work. My 33rd birthday and sharing the news about our addition to the family. We didn’t know the gender yet but I was praying about my pregnancy early on and felt… Continue reading 2019 in review.
Wee hours.
Every night since we brought Shiloh home, she has slept on my chest. That's where she is right now, snoozing peacefully. I'm trying so hard to memorize everything about her and "enjoy every moment" because I know too well how "it goes so fast." I love her little sounds and her breathing and her tiny… Continue reading Wee hours.
Home stretch!
I can't believe how fast this summer is going and how fast my pregnancy has gone this time. Granted, I have a busy job and a VERY busy toddler helping me pass the time. I'm 33 weeks today. I had a growth check for baby this morning and she's weighing in around 4.5 pounds and… Continue reading Home stretch!
I’ll always be your safe place.
This morning, Spencer was sleeping all snuggled up on my shoulder and I was about to get up and get ready for work. I was watching him for a minute and wondering how much longer he's going to want to snuggle up with his mom... and also wondering how we're going to make this work… Continue reading I’ll always be your safe place.
Kristen Stewart, Writer 