This morning, Spencer was sleeping all snuggled up on my shoulder and I was about to get up and get ready for work. I was watching him for a minute and wondering how much longer he’s going to want to snuggle up with his mom… and also wondering how we’re going to make this work when his sister comes and I’m nursing all the time.
He started whimpering in his sleep and breathing like he was upset, so I knew he was having a bad dream. I patted him and said “Spencer, what’s wrong? Wake up. Everything is ok.”
He looked up at me and puckered his lips like he was about to cry. He then asked with tear-filled eyes, “Why did you leave me?”
I asked if he had a dream that I left him somewhere and he nodded and put his head down and hugged me harder. I reassured him that I would never leave him and when I do take him somewhere, I know he is safe there and he can trust that I’ll come back for him.
And I will. I’ll always be his safe place when he needs it, his comfort, his steady hand in a world that’s changing all the time.
Kristen Stewart, Writer 