Well, the first week of full-time work and full-time daycare are over. And… I kind of loved it way more than I expected.
Some observations and things I didn’t expect:
1) Spencer took to daycare like he’s been going his whole life.
Seriously, I expected major meltdowns, clinging to my legs, refusing to nap, and the sitter calling me after two hours to come take him away.
Instead… he is having a blast. He’s going to an in home daycare with a friend of mine from church, so it’s much smaller and less stressful, which I’m sure helps. But yea, eats great, naps great, plays all day, gets mad when I come pick him up.
2) I actually didn’t miss him.
I feel guilty saying that. I love Spencer more than life itself. But… I enjoyed being away from him every day. I enjoyed being at work and being with other adults. I knew he was having fun too and not missing me either.
3) I felt less stressed than I have in a long time.
I absolutely love my new job and the people I am working with. I felt so welcomed and so comfortable there, like I’ve been part of their team forever. And my work-life balance is so much better now. I work during my office hours, and that’s it.
Not only that, but my commute so far has been really easy *knock on wood*. Jordan has helped a lot with housework so that’s been great.
4) Spencer doesn’t love me any less.
I was worried that our bond wouldn’t be as strong if I wasn’t with him every day. Not at all true. Nothing has changed and we are as close as ever.
5) I’m still a good mom.
Being home every day didn’t make me a better mom or wife. I can still be a good mom and wife and pursue a career that fulfills me outside of my home.
Kristen Stewart, Writer 