Be still.

My son is teething. He has spent most of the day fussing, crying, and occasionally screaming. He wants held constantly and our nap routine has flown out the window this week. The only thing that comforts my son today is to be held in my arms and nurse. So I’ve spent a large portion of my day sitting still. 

I can do this. I love holding him. I love knowing that my body can bring him comfort. I love nothing more than to sit and cuddle him. 

But when I think of our dwindling bank account… of the bills that need paid… the items I still need to get listed on eBay… the job applications I need to start filling out… the e-mail I received letting me know I wasn’t selected for the position I just interviewed for… the debt that we’ve been chipping away at but is still looming over us… I want to be DOING something. I’ve always been a woman of action, someone who fixes things when they’re broken, someone who can’t sit idly by. 

And I am reminded in this moment that God calls us to be still and KNOW. Know that HE is God and HE will be exalted. 

Does that mean I shouldn’t try? That I should literally sit in silence until a job falls into my lap, or my eBay sales start skyrocketing? Well, no. But my spirit needs to be still, to let go, to patiently trust in my God and know that His ways are not my ways and His plan is not my plan. 

In the meantime, I can sit with my son, try to soothe his discomfort, and be still before my God.